Aug 22, 2018

Learn to Live

We don’t take care of ourselves or others and act as if nothing’s wrong. We know it’s not good, but we do what’s easy and immediately fulfilling instead of what’s necessary for our survival.

There have been times

I slowly approach my death

Simply because

I fail to just take a breath

I fail to do

What’s necessary to live

But move along

As if I have air to give

I keep busy

To ignore my gasps for air

It’ll end soon

It’s only a bad nightmare

I wrote this poem because, at the time, I constantly had to take a big breath, but when I did it never felt complete and as if I was never filled entirely. I was basically just failing to breathe, failing to live. The poem is specifically about breathing, but I think it can apply to other areas we all fail in to keep us alive. Whether that be by avoiding people, food, happiness, or by causing physical harm to our bodies or to others. We allow bad things to continue and even push them along. We don’t take care of ourselves or others and act as if nothing’s wrong. We know it’s not good, but we do what’s easy and immediately fulfilling instead of what’s necessary for our survival. We struggle along and pretend like we’ve been prospering all our lives.

I have a small confession to make: I’m not the best eater. Most days I don’t eat enough, but when I do it’s typically things that aren’t healthy for me. I don’t have any disorder, just poor self-discipline. There are days when I’ll eat really well and it makes such a noticeable difference in my day and how I feel. Despite that high, the next day I’ll fall back into my old habits. I know what’s better for me, but I don’t do it simply because it’s easier to go into my regular habits. The problem lies in myself and I’m slowly working on taking responsibility of that and fixing it, but it’s still a consistent struggle of mine. There are other areas I could bring up, but I think it’d be more efficient to ask you to examine yourself and see if what areas you’re failing to thrive in, whether it be mentally, physically, or spiritually. Don’t starve yourself of any necessity for your survival– it’s not worth it. And don’t feed yourself with the things that only cause more harm. You can make mistakes, but you’ll only continue making them if you do nothing to change so you’ll do better. Learn to breathe. Learn to survive. Learn to live.