Aug 15, 2018

Giving Up Hope

Hope is the one thing that stands between our tragedies and the desire to give everything up.

Hope is the one thing that stands between our tragedies and the desire to give everything up. Living off of that hope is either the thing that is helping us survive or the thing that slowly kills us. There are many times I’ve been tempted to do (and have done) things that are only harmful, but seeing the hope I have for the future has pushed me away from that time and again. However, holding onto that hope can be immensely more difficult than simply giving up, and that’s why giving into the temptation of giving up can be so unbelievably easy. But here’s the thing: although fighting seems to only destroy us, you actually receive benefits like becoming stronger and sometimes even beating your rival, but if you just give in then you get absolutely nothing and you’re in a worse place than before because you’ve given up on the hope you once held onto, the thing that kept you fighting. Seeing the benefits can be hard at times, but trust me when I say that every second you hold onto your hope is another second that hope comes closer to reality, even if only through the means of time. The hope that things will get better, that you will be okay, that this is not the end; there are so many forms of hope, but each one pushes us to keep going, to keep fighting, and I find that so amazing.

There’s a book I read entitled A Monster Calls by Patrick Ness and he writes, “Belief is half of all healing. Belief in the cure, belief in the future that awaits.” Believing in a hope is so much more than just that; it’s half of doing. You’re not going to get anywhere if you don’t actually believe in the hope you’re putting your trust and will to live in. There is an abundance of inspirational quotes I could pull from that tell you not to give up and keep pushing on, but few give a actual reason why. Even if it doesn’t change your situation, it changes you, and sometimes that’s all you need. You have to change to become stronger, which will help you hold out until the day your situation does change.

It’s difficult to include concepts such as hope and believing without bringing God and/or Christianity into the mix. I believe that there can be false hopes, misplaced trust, and more than a few ways in which you will be disappointed in the future. But God’s presence in your life and the hope He provides are not a misplacement of your belief and effort. However, that one thing you’re hoping for may not be what you need, and if God doesn’t deliver it that doesn’t mean that who your hope was placed in was wrong, but rather your hope itself was. Luke 22:42 says, “Not my will, but yours be done.” Place your hope in God, and not things, and He will carry you through to the end (Philippians 1:6).

I know I’m failing to give examples of this, but I’m mainly writing to myself because I’m in a moment of panic, fearing the future, while also holding onto the hope that even further in the future things will be better and I will be okay. I named this post “Giving Up Hope.” I wanted it to be something like, “Giving Up and Hope.” Or some variation of that, but I want it to show how the only thing worse than giving up is giving up hope. People may have nothing, but if they have hope then that’s enough. So once you give that up, then you truly have nothing. Hope is what’s kept me going this whole time, and it will hold out until it’s really over; I will be okay.